Actually a post from Saturday

So, today was the day. I have a great friend online who just inspires and motivates me. She earned $14,000 last year and is upset that she didn't save more (she only saved about $4000). HUH? As a nurse, I make WAY MORE than that...and yet I have nothing to show for it. I had not looked at my bills in two months. I have been so overwhelmed that my head is barely above water. As I would get cut off notices, I would pay what I could. Well, that is no way to live. I tackled the stack of papers in the kitchen today. Bills from november to present. I don't quite have a handle on it yet. I need to visit the websites to see where I really stand - because most are different than the last statements I've gotten. BUT, I DID IT!!! I tackled the mound, got it organized. I also used my new bill organizer that Santa gave me. I have to get caught up. D is sending me a very generous check (loan). I will be able to get caught up!!! I am so excited!!!

I also had to face the fact that I am in horrible shape and have gained 37 pounds since last April. It is time to do something about it. My motivational friend - she is amazing. We will be meeting to do the VIRGINIA BEACH MARATHON on Sept 6, 2009. I am SO excited. DD is up for it too! And I get to stay at my cousins and see the baby! (who won't be a baby anymore!). If anyone else wants to join, come on. Training starts tomorrow!!! (Nope, not even waiting until Monday - Santa also got me a jump rope!).

I missed out on coffee this morning. I was up super early, then went back to bed and slept until TWO! I am always tired. Always. I felt so much better when I was working out. Now that I have a goal again....I am so hopeful that I can feel good again. I hate that I missed time with friends that I haven't seen in far too long. I AM SORRY!!! C - you are right about the depression and me not wanting to interact. I am working on it. I am also hopeful about that.

So, today was about facing fears. Money fears, health fears, friend fears (sorta). Tomorrow starts "THE TIME TO ACT!!!!!". Exercise in the morning, laundry, maybe to Commerce to get scrubs with my gift certificate. Back to work Monday. I have not worked two full weeks in a row --- THAT is changing on Monday. I want my life back. I want to feel good, meet friends for coffee, exercise, have less stress and just be me! Watch out, Karen will be back soon!!!! I AM READY TO GET MY LIFE BACK!!!!!